What’s at the top of your mountain, anyway?
We’re a society of self-improvement. Bigger, better, more, shinier, slimmer, more perfect.
Somehow we’ve signed up for the ‘Self Improvement Program’ in our life.
I, too, have been a fixer all of my life. I understand it at the core of my being.
I chuckle to myself as I write ‘no more’. More truthfully…
I now can see the fixer in me. 2020 shone a blinding spotlight on my life. Now, I’m mastering the soft power of alignment and clarity of heart.
Every time I reached the top of my mountain, there was another level to climb. The top, never within my reach.
Outwardly, 2020 has been the most successful year for me. I kept on top of all the things, I strived, I pushed, I proved.
Internally, I was running from everything that I was afraid of. I will not let ‘that’ happen.
I’ve been asking myself, what is the climb for? Who is the real me beyond what I believe will fix my life to make it oh, so perfect?
Maybe, the more we try to fix ourselves, the more we reinforce the belief that we’re broken.
Lorna Bevan, ‘Hare In The Moon Astrology’…
“What would it be like if you stopped trying to become someone different? If you stopped the big project of trying to improve yourself, heal yourself, or change yourself?
What if you knew, really knew, that you’re already fully connected, that there is nothing to learn, do be, practice, or enhance? Stop trying to heal yourself, improve yourself, even awaken yourself. Let go of letting go. Stop trying to fast forward the movie of your life, chasing futures that never seem to arrive.
Instead, deeply bow to yourself as you actually are. Your pain, sorrow, your doubts, your deepest longing. Your fearful thoughts are not mistakes. They are not asking to be healed. They are asking to be held.”
It’s 2021. The energy has shifted from our Self-Improvement Program to the Power of Soft Alignment and Clarity of Heart.
A good question to ask ourselves right now is, “What’s at the top of my mountain, anyway?”
With great love